Private Message to Shivani Johns
Jul. 25th, 2012 08:48 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
alt_lanaI'm sorry I didn't answer the other day. I did see what you wrote. Only, I suppose I didn't know quite what to say, and I've been kept so busy at work I can't even-
I've been trying extra hard to impress, and I know he thinks I'll come short because of the wedding, and that would be- well. It can't happen because keeping his good opinion, even if he doesn't agree to an Internship, is just absolutely the most important thing. I really mean that. If he said we had to work, we'd put off our wedding trip. We'd put off the nuptials, too, if it came to that, though that would be a huge mess for Mama and Papa, but it would have to be all right. It just would. And obviously Ned feels the same way.
But that's not what you asked. I know.
I thought we'd been through this ages ago. Only, I know. You mean that it's real now where it was just talk then.
No, I don't believe I'll regret it. Ned's a good sort, the right sort. How could I do better? And, anyway, it's entirely too late for rethinking. The invitations are out. (Who's your plus-one going to be? Not Theo, surely!)
I simply plan to enjoy the wedding as much as ever can be, and then the rest will sort itself. Over time.
Because we'll have all the time in the world to work out what it means to be married to one another, won't we?
And if he's not the most- well, you know. I don't see that one really needs one's husband to be everything. That puts an unrealistic burden on Ned, really. That's how I see it now, I think. Only, I'm mostly choosing not to think about it, I suppose.
Anyway, everything is coming together, and Papa's making sure that mine will be absolutely the most impressive nuptial celebration New London has seen yet. Setting the standard for others to note.
Psyche Bobolis can just weep with envy: her nuptials can't hope to compare--but, of course, everyone will be thinking back to mine all the while they're suffering ennui at hers. Ugh. That's going to be a task, keeping a sociable face for that event. But it will be so useful to have a husband for those sorts of engagements, won't it?
I've been trying extra hard to impress, and I know he thinks I'll come short because of the wedding, and that would be- well. It can't happen because keeping his good opinion, even if he doesn't agree to an Internship, is just absolutely the most important thing. I really mean that. If he said we had to work, we'd put off our wedding trip. We'd put off the nuptials, too, if it came to that, though that would be a huge mess for Mama and Papa, but it would have to be all right. It just would. And obviously Ned feels the same way.
But that's not what you asked. I know.
I thought we'd been through this ages ago. Only, I know. You mean that it's real now where it was just talk then.
No, I don't believe I'll regret it. Ned's a good sort, the right sort. How could I do better? And, anyway, it's entirely too late for rethinking. The invitations are out. (Who's your plus-one going to be? Not Theo, surely!)
I simply plan to enjoy the wedding as much as ever can be, and then the rest will sort itself. Over time.
Because we'll have all the time in the world to work out what it means to be married to one another, won't we?
And if he's not the most- well, you know. I don't see that one really needs one's husband to be everything. That puts an unrealistic burden on Ned, really. That's how I see it now, I think. Only, I'm mostly choosing not to think about it, I suppose.
Anyway, everything is coming together, and Papa's making sure that mine will be absolutely the most impressive nuptial celebration New London has seen yet. Setting the standard for others to note.
Psyche Bobolis can just weep with envy: her nuptials can't hope to compare--but, of course, everyone will be thinking back to mine all the while they're suffering ennui at hers. Ugh. That's going to be a task, keeping a sociable face for that event. But it will be so useful to have a husband for those sorts of engagements, won't it?
